Finn survived the ambush and came home to me, but in his head, the battle is still raging. He’s falling apart and I’m trying my best to pick up the pieces of him, to find the us we used to be. I love him as much as I ever did, but love isn’t enough to fix this. I thought telling my father about our relationship would be the hardest thing we’d ever have to face. I was wrong.
Lost in shadows…
All I wanted was to be worthy of Carrie. One mission, just one, and I’d be able to give her the future she deserved. Then everything went wrong, leaving me tainted and broken. Carrie wants me to be who I was, but all that’s left is what they made of me. I’m no good for her. No good for anyone like this. I have to figure out how to move forward. Alone.
Sometimes love isn’t enough…
This one book made the whole series worth it for me. Ho-ly crap. It’s not a happy sunshine and rainbows read. You’ve been warned.
I have a weak spot for people who people who suffer from PTSD. One of my very best friends, so close he’s like a brother, returned from a deployment a changed man. He’s an incredible man who has overcome so much in the last few years. I feel blessed just to know him. Naturally when I finished the last book, Out of Time, and moved on to this one, Out of Mind, I KNEW that Finn would be struggling with his injuries and the moments that caused them. This. Was. Gut-wrenching. Reading about what he was going though was devastating, but then you also have Carrie who is suffering right along with him. She wants to be enough for him, and she just doesn’t believe that she is. My heart hurts right now just thinking about it.
Finn gets himself hooked on pain pills and booze. He’s not the same man from the first two books – he’s lost – and no matter how hard she tries, Carrie can’t find him. He has to find himself. Eventually Finn gets to a place where he is determined to push Carrie away. In doing so he thinks he’s “saving her”. Ha. Laughable. All that does is make them both even more miserable. It does help him to eventually get his shit together, but seriously, it’s horrendously hard to read.
On top of all those struggles, Carrie’s parents are thrown into the mix. Obviously now the senator and first lady (?) know that Carrie and Finn are in love. That doesn’t mean they like it or accept it. Finn’s dad isn’t doing so well physically. And Riley, another senator’s kid, is still lurking around. He’s really NOT a threat, but Finn has it in his mind that Carrie would be better off with him rather than an emotionally and physically scared Marine.
Have I mentioned that this entire book made me nauseous? It was the best type of nauseous. Crap, is that even possible? Ugh.
Carrie’s father fears that Finn won’t be able to protect Carrie anymore. He can’t even walk half the time due to his “extracurricular activities”. Truth is, no one and I mean no one can protect Carrie as well as Finn. Don’t count him out – ever.
I loved it. Straight up, flat- out, over the moon – LOVED this book. The struggles, the love between Finn and Carrie, watching them let go so they can ultimately find one another again. This book was made for hopeless romantics. If you haven’t guessed, I’m one of them. I’d recommend the entire series just based off this one book.
ABOUT JEN MCLAUGHLIN:
Jen McLaughlin is a New York Times and USA Today bestselling author. She writes steamy New Adult books for the young and young at heart. Her first release, Out of Line, came out September 2013. She also writes bestselling Contemporary Romance under the pen name Diane Alberts.Since receiving her first contract offer under the pen name Diane Alberts, she has yet to stop writing. She is represented by Louise Fury at The Bent Agency.
Though she lives in the mountains, she really wishes she was surrounded by a hot, sunny beach with crystal clear water. She lives in Northeast Pennsylvania with her four kids, a husband, a schnauzer mutt, a cat, and a Senegal parrot. In the rare moments when she’s not writing, she can usually be found hunched over one knitting project or another. Her goal is to write so many well-crafted romance books that even a non-romance reader will know her name.